This new post is in relation to the one that I posted yesterday and that while I was at work today, there were things that I could not seem to shift from my head. The biggest thing being how I want to go about being a better person after everything that has happened in the past couple of months. I promise that I will keep this as brief as possible.
Right the first thing is, that I am going to spend more time with my friends and family. Mainly because they are the people I turn to in my darkest hours and they always seem to surprise with their love and generosity.
Secondly, I am pledging at least for a while, to give up drinking alcohol. Mainly because a few weeks ago, I decided that I was going to a few drinks but because I wanted to feel better about everything. I went over board and that is some what of an understatement. So at least for a while I am going to avoid putting my self in that situation for a while at least.
And thirdly, I want a fresh start somewhere new. Somewhere, where no one knows what has gone on in the past and where I can think about starting a life and a career without my past holding me back. For now this is between me and my brain and when the right time comes I shall tell my family.
So that’s all for now, hopefully my next post will be a story.
Every now and again I make a promise to myself to start blogging more and and make some sort of attempt to de-clutter the thoughts that seem to swirl round my brain like bath water escaping down the plug hole. I sitting typing this not so sensibly on my brand new iPad mini. The effort it would have taken to get my laptop out, is severely out weighed by the fact that I have sore shoulders from being tattooed earlier. I have no idea why I decided to write this post but things have been so awful over the past couple of months, that I think I needed some sort of creative outlet for all the emotions that I seem to be collating. And to maybe remind myself what I have learnt in the recent past. The biggest thing being, that I have the most amazing friends and family and I am proud to have them by my side. I love them all so dearly, for so many different reasons. I also learnt the depths to which humanity can sink and that some people are conniving and cold hearted and until you are away from them, you don’t realise what an effect they have on you.
I should continue to write more short stories or blog about the mini adventures that I like to go on. Maybe now, I am in a little bit of a better place I can get rid of this writers block and start being a more normal version of myself. I think being tattooed twice in three days did a lot to help with some of new found clarity. Which isn’t a bad thing. Well for now I am going to sign off and look at funny videos of cats in YouTube. Plus I need to peel the cling film off my tattoo!